Confessions Part 9 - Feeling Sick & Working

Confessions Part 9 – Feeling Sick & Working

By Agata Descroix – @agatacruz
An excerpt from her book – Confessions of An Autistic And Sexually Confused International Model

Yesterday I was cooking a delicious Indonesian gado-gado and a flan for dessert but it seems like my stomach didn’t like one of them. I am feeling dizzy and nauseous and I have to work today. Fortunately, my call time is in the afternoon and I try to do everything I can to feel better.

Arriving at the location, my belly is still so bad that I have to lay down on the floor to relieve the pain. My coordinator today is an adorable gay guy and he gives me pills to cure the spasms caused by my food poisoning. Two other models are here with me. Two girls I get along very well with. One is my beloved German friend and the other one is a Brazilian girl who has worked with me many times because we kind of look alike. Today, the job is not as glamorous as usual.

We only have to be at a very small porcelain cups event and cut the ribbon to celebrate. It’s easy and short. We are not even to remain an hour there. And by the way, where is the event?

“We have to go at the other side of the city and we will come back here when the event is done.”

I am completely panicked to have to go far away in a car with all that mess in my stomach. When our make up and hair are done, the coordinator puts three dresses in the trunk and off we go. I am sitting in the front but the roads are winding so much I start to feel really bad.

It’s endless. I am sweating and start to feel I am going to faint. I open the window to get a breath of fresh air but the traffic is so dense I just get gasoline and smog in my lungs. My body is almost falling down from the window and I throw up disgusted and overwhelmed by the smells. I hate being sick like that. It’s a nightmare for me but after three violent spasms, I feel a bit better. The event goes smoothly and quickly but the fifty minutes of presence seem an eternity in my body.

I am tired and even if my belly is feeling calm now, I just want to go home. Home is far away still and we have to come back by the same road when night is falling. Right now, I am just not in the mood at all.